I used to think if I believed that I want to be better, I will be better. I thought that only my intentions mattered.
As important as the intentions are, I used them as some sort of perverse satisfaction—a tool to assure myself that I'm going in the right direction, without ever making a single step.
I did this by hoarding courses, books. I was subconsciously waiting for someone or something else to do the work for me, act the right way for me.
I won't lie and say that I never do that anymore. I'm still tempted to escape from responsibilities that way.
But I do return to reality a lot faster than I used to. I guess, that's progress.
I used to think if I believed that I want to be better, I will be better. I thought that only my intentions mattered.
As important as the intentions are, I used them as some sort of perverse satisfaction—a tool to assure myself that I'm going in the right direction, without ever making a single step.
I did this by hoarding courses, books. I was subconsciously waiting for someone or something else to do the work for me, act the right way for me.
I won't lie and say that I never do that anymore. I'm still tempted to escape from responsibilities that way.
But I do return to reality a lot faster than I used to. I guess, that's progress.
Thanks for this, Nicola.
That awareness is key. When we’re aware we have choice. It doesn’t mean we always choose the new behavior, the change.
I’ve done the same, Karthik. The courses and books. I get it!