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Earl Waud's avatar

Damn, Nicola. That is intense. I winced reading this...

"Because when someone you trust and love completely tells you the truth about yourself, your nervous system doesn’t question it. It just takes it in."

I winced because I know it is NOT the truth and it hurts reading that it's what you took away as a young girl.

I am glad you are doing the work and thank you sharing and being vulnerable so we all can benefit.

Nicola Vitkovich's avatar

Thank you, Earl. I appreciate you very much, my friend. That’s the thing about patterns, they feel like who we are, they feel true - especially when they aren’t.

Dr. Bronce Rice's avatar

I love this! From the grit, determination, the honesty, the unconscious aspect of what you found lurking inside you, to being able to help yourself and your clients live a better, honest life with some chance at a bit more easiness that is rarely easy.

I tip my hat to you Nicola and feel glad you shared with us what you have. It matters!

Nicola Vitkovich's avatar

Thank you, Bronce. Your notes warm my heart. I so appreciate you.

Katy Swanson's avatar

Mine was "Who told you you could think?"

I never thought I was stupid, but like you say... "What's the point?"

Funny, I coasted through High School with a B average, but when I actually applied myself in college I pulled an A (3.8) average.

Even better my sixth grade teacher told my mom that taking Spanish in Junior High was not a good idea because I didn't have a good enough grasp of my native language.

Ha ha ha! I wrote and self publised a book.

Nicola Vitkovich's avatar

“Don’t think, Nikki, you’re not good at it.”

I heard that one too often as well, and that made me hesitate to speak up, offer my opinion or insight until I did the inner work to integrate it.

It’s good to see you didn’t let those messages slow you down, Katy.

Katy Swanson's avatar

Thanks for the compliment. It took a while and a whole lot of Jesus.

Stephen Griffin's avatar

Beautifully seen. The real wound wasn't the words — it was the belief you took as truth because it came from someone you loved without filter. That's how consciousness creates our limits: we download someone else's fear and mistake it for reality. Letting go of that 'What's the point?' program is pure deconstruction work. 🧡

Nicola Vitkovich's avatar

Thank you, Stephen. It has been a most powerful lesson and experience.

Srishti Wilhelm's avatar

So true Nicola,

Me too, for years, blamed mom for everything because she is overt.

But my biggest wounds come also from dad. Because he loved unconditionally, and so i picked up his patterns. And doing his pattern meant I could be a good person, I could be a loving person, abnegating myself meant I was honorable.

Nicola Vitkovich's avatar

Knowing you as I do, Srishti, I can see the similarities. Those either/or boxes. When it's really both/and when we clear the M.U.D. Thank you 💜

Javonna's avatar

That’s a deep, transformational shift.

So much awareness now. I think I am beginning to see that it’s not the big glaring wound. I will continue with the reps and the intention.

Thank you again for creating the space for all of us. And for being so transparent with the work. 💫💜

Nicola Vitkovich's avatar

Thank you, Javonna. This was certainly a bigger share than the average, more personal. And I think for it - more impactful. I appreciate you and your kind words, my friend. 💜